Lots of Time

That's right... lots of time, just not lots of energy. I spend lots of time on the edge of stir crazy. A couple evenings (the ones following good long afternoon naps) I actually had the energy to be moving around gabbering and trying to figure out what to do. All this knowing I didn't really have the energy to actually do anything I might come up with.

Recent days, however, have had me up and around more, helping with this or that, or reading with the kids, or off to buy fireworks for an early Father's Day. These days don't include naps, at least not long ones, and my evenings are tired. Though not enough to sleep.

Occasionally I find something to read or re-read. Otherwise, it's time for thinking... and praying.

In the midst of my high fevers, as I lay awake all hours... sleepless... I could pray. And I did. I prayed for people. For wisdom. Prayers of worship. Of thanksgiving. It's been one of the several hidden blessings behind this sickness.

Prayer. Oh how I've enjoyed it.

Attached to the prayer has been reflection and thought. Thinking through the coming homeschool year as we embark on "official" kindergarten. Thinking through this has led to both reading and reflection. Oh... and of course more prayer. I've stacked books on my wishlist, (both ones I've read before and some I haven't) begun frequenting the archives of a blog or two, and am rethinking through what it is to live. To be.

What started as a list of what to do with my kindergartner has evolved into how I want to live my day to day life with my children. In general.

And so, with limited energy I press on in this. Thinking. Reflecting. Praying. Grateful for the place He has put me right now... with lots of time.



Choosing gratefulness:
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• Lyme Disease
• enough energy to think, ponder and pray
• a mother in law who moved in and took over (taking care of us all)
• having no idea what is happening in my own kitchen (I can't find anything)
• my biggest baby on grandma's lap through church
• cuddling to read chapter books with that same boy
• a husband working on his own projects
• a wonderful father for my children!
• laundry and dishes that do themselves (thanks mom!)
• a cruiser... cruising around the living room
• ribbons in curly pig-tails
• smiles returning to faces because of momma hugs

Labels: Gratitude, Lyme Disease, Reflections

posted by ~Babychaser~ @ 9:04 PM