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Thursday, June 4, 2009

What I've always wanted to be...

I've always wanted to be a cook... to create fine meals and menus and to present them beautifully. To work short order or to plan several courses. To feed the same people day in and day out, working to make them healthful. ...So why do I dread starting each new meal?

I've always wanted to be a waitress... to serve, to prep the table, to "be right back" with whatever someone needs or wants... so why are my feet so heavy now?

I've always wanted to be a bus boy... to clear dish upon dish upon dish from the table. To wipe down and even scrub the remains of food and drink from the surface. To sweep (and even scrub) the floor underneath each chair once each meal is over. why do I let it sit so long before finally doing it?

I've always wanted to be the "dish washer"... to have my hands in water so much during the day that it is impractical to get a manicure (even if I could have one). To rewash the same plates, bowls and cups, pots and pans, spoons, forks, knives, etc., etc. over and over and over and over... just to see them dirtied and in need of washing over again. why do I avoid it as long as possible?

I've always wanted to be a cleaning lady... to spend hour upon hour upon hour sweeping, wiping, clearing, dusting. To do the same monotonous work day in and day out, just to see it dirtied again. why don't I do it with joy now? (correction: why don't I do it at all now?)

Then there are the other jobs I've longed to do...

nurse sick and injured

The list can and does go on forever!

Ok, so I suppose I never realized that these are the things I've always wanted to be... but when I longed to be a wife and mother, this was part of it! When I was dreaming of the day I would have children, I was dreaming of wiping noses, scrubbing floors, potty training, pushing a train around a track, dusting, meal planning, doing dishes. Like I said, the list goes on.

So why are my minutes not spilling over with words and thoughts of praise to my God for blessing me with the desires of my heart??

Lord, open my eyes, with each new minute, to all I have to rejoice in! Thank you for all you give me! Help me to be thankful for all that being a wife and mother entails!

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At June 4, 2009 at 8:20 PM , Blogger Jessica Jacobs said...

Thank you for your wonderful posts, I am a lot like you, I have dreams and plans to be a great wife, mother, and keeper of the home, but in each task I drag my feet and do not find Joy in doing things for my family and in turn for the Lord. I love to hear the things you have to say, you have been an encouragement to me in many ways, I have a 2 year old daughter and a 2 month old son, so I can relate to a lot of the things you talk about.

At June 4, 2009 at 8:51 PM , Blogger Beverly Hernandez said...

My daughter sent me the link to this post. We were just talking today about this...about my imaginary life, where the house is clean, the dishes are done, the meals are many and scrumptious, my work is done precisely, I'm running and playing with the grandkids, my garden harvest is plentiful...and these things do exist, just not all at the same time. We wear so many hats as a woman, it's hard to wear them all at once.

At June 5, 2009 at 9:10 PM , Blogger Kristin said...

What a timely reminder!

At June 6, 2009 at 10:15 AM , Blogger Chris said...

great post!


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