Lots of Time

That's right... lots of time, just not lots of energy. I spend lots of time on the edge of stir crazy. A couple evenings (the ones following good long afternoon naps) I actually had the energy to be moving around gabbering and trying to figure out what to do. All this knowing I didn't really have the energy to actually do anything I might come up with.

Recent days, however, have had me up and around more, helping with this or that, or reading with the kids, or off to buy fireworks for an early Father's Day. These days don't include naps, at least not long ones, and my evenings are tired. Though not enough to sleep.

Occasionally I find something to read or re-read. Otherwise, it's time for thinking... and praying.

In the midst of my high fevers, as I lay awake all hours... sleepless... I could pray. And I did. I prayed for people. For wisdom. Prayers of worship. Of thanksgiving. It's been one of the several hidden blessings behind this sickness.

Prayer. Oh how I've enjoyed it.

Attached to the prayer has been reflection and thought. Thinking through the coming homeschool year as we embark on "official" kindergarten. Thinking through this has led to both reading and reflection. Oh... and of course more prayer. I've stacked books on my wishlist, (both ones I've read before and some I haven't) begun frequenting the archives of a blog or two, and am rethinking through what it is to live. To be.

What started as a list of what to do with my kindergartner has evolved into how I want to live my day to day life with my children. In general.

And so, with limited energy I press on in this. Thinking. Reflecting. Praying. Grateful for the place He has put me right now... with lots of time.



Choosing gratefulness:
(298-309)

• Lyme Disease
• enough energy to think, ponder and pray
• a mother in law who moved in and took over (taking care of us all)
• having no idea what is happening in my own kitchen (I can't find anything)
• my biggest baby on grandma's lap through church
• cuddling to read chapter books with that same boy
• a husband working on his own projects
• a wonderful father for my children!
• laundry and dishes that do themselves (thanks mom!)
• a cruiser... cruising around the living room
• ribbons in curly pig-tails
• smiles returning to faces because of momma hugs

Labels: Gratitude, Lyme Disease, Reflections

posted by ~Babychaser~ @ 9:04 PM 6 Comments

Feeling so much better

Just popping in for an update. Energy is still low, but all the pain, fever, night sweats, and insomnia are gone. Have been since probably Saturday now. I'm even able to do a few things here and there. Anything I do, though, is equally proportionate to how much I'll sleep in the late morning or afternoon (depending on when I do it).

It's wonderful to have My Beloved's mom here with us still. I suppose we could do it without her at this point if we had no other option (though not before), but every day I'd just get further and further behind. I'm certainly not ready to be picking up my normal schedule. We'd be on "just the basics" a while longer I think and it's so nice to have her here. She does all the cooking and dishes and laundry. She asked for a mop bucket this morning. (My floors won't know what hit them!) Right now she's out with the kids on a walk (they missed the outside It think!) while the baby sleeps and I'm just here.

I'm getting antsy and wanting to be doing more than sitting/laying around, but I know I'm not quite ready for normal stuff yet. I'm going to try to start working toward it little baby step at a time so I don't have to just plunge right into full time when I am on my own again one day. And I'll take it as slow as it seems I need. :) Praise the Lord for help!

Labels: As it happens..., Lyme Disease

posted by ~Babychaser~ @ 9:38 AM 1 Comments

Lyme's and Calling in the Troops

Just stopping in quick...

Diagnosis in today. Lyme's Disease. Uck!

Fevers are lower finally. Should be gone completely by Friday or so. Now we start the very long (weeks? months? anyone know?) journey through. Pain and exhaustion are the new normal and are to be expected. Started antibiotics tonight.

My Beloved called in "the troops". His parents arrive tomorrow night from all the way in Michigan. Dad will leave again on Thursday (thanks for bringing her Dad!) and mom will stay till we don't need her anymore. It will be nice to eat home cooked again. My Beloved has been working hard to care for me, keep a sick house kept up and doing everything with the kids but nurse the baby. We've had take out several times this week! Not that I'm hungry.

Labels: As it happens...

posted by ~Babychaser~ @ 10:13 PM 3 Comments

So sick...

Been sick more than a week now. High fevers set in 48 hours ago. It's only 102 or something now, so I'm a little stir crazy. Last night it was up at 104... earlier today it was around 103.4.

Just telling you where I am.

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posted by ~Babychaser~ @ 7:58 PM 0 Comments